I'm simultaneously maintaining the contradictory beliefs that:
1) the universe is governed by a series of immutable laws with no consciousness (no God), and
2) the universe is conspiring to teach me something during my time on Earth.
I'm intimately aware of the cognitive dissonance this requires. But I can't seem to pin down what I believe.
At the beginning of the new year, I declared that it would be very hard for 2013 to be worse than 2012.